to some extent awake

Before getting out of bed this morning I noticed that attention was filled with sights and sounds from a telly programme I watched last night. So ‘I’ switched attention to breathing and body awareness. But ‘it’ quickly switched to thinking of the details of a project at the weekend and to work that needs doing on some web sites. So, again, ‘I’ switched attention to breathing and body awareness.

It is to be noted that attention rarely stayed with the present moment for more than a few seconds. But there was quite good awareness of what was going on - there was thought - but ‘I’ was not lost in it - not completely! As I woke I was to some extent awake - yahoo!

Blind habits

While in the kitchen I noted an urge to put the milk bottle to my lips and to eat dates but I resisted the temptations and then felt a spoiled brat temper tantrum welling up. “I want it now!”

And that melodrama took less than a minute to unfold. Minor mood colours. All part of a days churn.

There is much mental stuff that is not normally noticed or understood. Blind habits. So wake up to them and be free to live authentically in the present. Why not?

stew juice

I noticed myself obsessing over trivia - stewing in my mind made juices. Given that the energy comes from the amazing life force how come it manifests in such a scatty and disorganised way in me?

Presumably I am not unique. So how come there is so much cerebral noise. Good enough I suppose is good enough. The bare necessities get covered and the rest is fluff.

The bottom line is brute physical survival - food, clothing and shelter.

The psychological stuff on top is go faster stripes.

The transcendental stuff on top of that is pretty rarefied.