Challenge – say something about the process of thought. Thoughts keep coming but I am not as yet giving as much attention as I might to investigating the source of the thoughts. I am not clear what this would involve. It does not only mean coming to grips with the possible causes of that particular thought/feeling appearing at that particular moment although that is part of it, especially in the early days of the reconditioning process. It really means developing a new awareness of and attitude towards the source/energy/intention that causes any thought at all to arise. Why not stillness? Why all the activity? Not, “What is the purpose in Life?” but rather, “What causes the urge to think that their should be a purpose in life?”. And the answer to that question should be an intuition regarding deep consciousness/ neurology rather than a rationalisation about cultural conditioning.


Thus the value and virtue of just sitting. Be still and know. And yet I still have not developed a timetable and routine for meditation. I stick with an ad hoc schedule. Why is this? Is it really necessary to change? How are such questions to be answered? – By being still? By giving time to immersion in the wisdom literature? By staying away from the easy distractions of booze, media and society? I know the answers but there is resistance to applying them in a systematic manner. But perhaps I am being unfair. There have been several major steps towards renunciant frugality and right livelihood. I may not as yet correspond to a text book case but I am considerably further along the road than most people. But is there value in a normative approach to such an abnormal aspiration – possibly not. OK – but that thought train seems to have chugged out of range of up front consciousness.